Today is Monday, August 9th
6:19pm
Santa Fe home.

Today, my little sister asked me if i wanted to eat at Lota-burger, The sensitive side came out from me. I was thinking when was the last time, I remembered I at Lota-burger at the Gathering of Nations.

I remember it was like yesterday, I remember it was warm, bright, and I bought her a dress, and I bought myself a white Polo. I remember I said let's eat at the Macaroni grill, and she was worried about cost.

So we ate at the foodstands, meanwhile in Lota-burger eating with my sister, I can feel a lump coming up, and my eye's started to water.

I remember rubbing my son, and asking him about how his burger, and I remember buying her another burger from flying star with a Dessert.

I felt lonely and sad because my son is not with us, I miss him everday, and wonder why he left, and why she didn't understand, and she moved here, it woulda be better for us, and she wouldn't have to worry.

I'm still a good person, and I don't wanna feel the same pain again, just being alone killed me.

I'm currently have sour tears running down my brown skin, as I sit here missing them both.

I'm not going to Lie, I miss her, I miss her calling me baby, and asking her how she was doing, and how Jacob was doing.

I can't finish.

Dear Jacob, Your mother wrote me and said she was hear, and wanting to know to see if I was alright, I guess she doing better, She said I made her believe I really love her, I think this is the side of her when she gets really lonely and down, and decides to write me.

I think it's to soon to write, I believe quietness, and separation is the best way to let go, as I don't respond or write her back, her love for me will die down, and her tears will dry.

I just wanted her to believe in me, I think she's looking at my page, and thinking how bad she left me in ruins, I was very honest with your mommy, and now it's to late for her to come back to me.

I'm pushing forward, I think she's finally missing what she had, and no other can compare to me.

No one can measure to me, I am your father, writing to you, and soon, I will see u in the future, everyday I keep you in my heart.

I don't plan on settling down, I will wait after I'm successful, and find someone who's loves me and cherishes me and understand the person on who I am.

I miss u jacob.