i miss you son, i know your birth is like the first week of october, i miss you, so i dedicated a project i am doing, this song reminded me of you,

daddy loves you forever, can't wait for heaven to see your face...

Today is Monday, August 9th
6:19pm
Santa Fe home.

Today, my little sister asked me if i wanted to eat at Lota-burger, The sensitive side came out from me. I was thinking when was the last time, I remembered I at Lota-burger at the Gathering of Nations.

I remember it was like yesterday, I remember it was warm, bright, and I bought her a dress, and I bought myself a white Polo. I remember I said let's eat at the Macaroni grill, and she was worried about cost.

So we ate at the foodstands, meanwhile in Lota-burger eating with my sister, I can feel a lump coming up, and my eye's started to water.

I remember rubbing my son, and asking him about how his burger, and I remember buying her another burger from flying star with a Dessert.

I felt lonely and sad because my son is not with us, I miss him everday, and wonder why he left, and why she didn't understand, and she moved here, it woulda be better for us, and she wouldn't have to worry.

I'm still a good person, and I don't wanna feel the same pain again, just being alone killed me.

I'm currently have sour tears running down my brown skin, as I sit here missing them both.

I'm not going to Lie, I miss her, I miss her calling me baby, and asking her how she was doing, and how Jacob was doing.

I can't finish.

Dear Jacob, Your mother wrote me and said she was hear, and wanting to know to see if I was alright, I guess she doing better, She said I made her believe I really love her, I think this is the side of her when she gets really lonely and down, and decides to write me.

I think it's to soon to write, I believe quietness, and separation is the best way to let go, as I don't respond or write her back, her love for me will die down, and her tears will dry.

I just wanted her to believe in me, I think she's looking at my page, and thinking how bad she left me in ruins, I was very honest with your mommy, and now it's to late for her to come back to me.

I'm pushing forward, I think she's finally missing what she had, and no other can compare to me.

No one can measure to me, I am your father, writing to you, and soon, I will see u in the future, everyday I keep you in my heart.

I don't plan on settling down, I will wait after I'm successful, and find someone who's loves me and cherishes me and understand the person on who I am.

I miss u jacob.

today im doing perfectly fine son, just thinking about camera and lenses and writing my next script, I miss you alot jacob, next month u will be 8 months, and nine, i wish u will still alive baby, im sorry if i made your mother unhappy, i have tears rolling down my cheeks, we made so much plans for your arrival, and I miss talking to you, where your in your mommy's tummy, I will lay on the bed talking to her belly, and saying i can't wait to see you baby, and i will miss you when u travel back home to Cali, In April I didn't know, It was the last and final time i saw you, I know you were only a fetus, you were mine to call, I can hear your mom yelling at me and blaming me for your death, its none of our faults, the current mood is your mom said she sending me back stuff, and her new address, im crying, and my heart is heavy

imu

papa

Dear Jacob, I know your doing better, and your not suffering anymore, I miss you so much, yesterday I saw a woman downtown pregnant, I thought about u and mommy, A single tear drop rolled down my left cheek, and plenty more followed, today u would be seven months old, since when your mom and i did decide to have u. I miss you everyday, I hope this love doesn't fade, I hope in the future I will remember, remember i always loves u and mommy, your mom and i miss u very much, when the day comes, i will see your face and u will see mine, til the end of time

i love u baby

dear baby jacob i miss u so much, i miss talking to you, i hope ur feeling well and doing better, i miss u alot son, i will remember always


papa

This is where it all started, this is her, the best mother I know, and got the chance to spend with her, I wish I had a ton a money to spend on her, and get her anything she wanted, I wish we were alike and had more stuff in common.

This is the girl that Sacrificed her body for me

This is a image of Jacobs Mother

I still love her -Zach